| 01.25.04
– “Oh, you should never, never doubt what nobody is sure
about.”
Recent Movies: Big Fish,
Monsters, Inc., Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory,
Cowboy Bebop: The Movie
Music: Waylon Jennings’ Greatest Hits, Johnny
Cash: Classic Cash Hall of Fame Series
Literature: Lucky Wander Boy by D. B.
Weiss, Batman: The Dark Knight Returns by Frank Miller,
lots of school books
Games: Parodius (Arcade), Castlevania: Lament of
Innocence (PS2), Mario & Luigi Superstar Saga (Game Boy Advance)
I also started watching the extended version of
The Two Towers, but it’s JUST TOO LONG to finish
in one sitting.
First of all, I would like to apologize for the
last weblog entry I did. I was pretty mad at myself for posting
it and seriously considered removing it, but I guess everything
in it was legitimate, so I didn’t. However, it’s getting
a little ridiculous—I can find the most minute, meaningless
reasons to feel blue, and furthermore, I complain about
everything! Yes, I know, even this is a complaint! And,
like any self-absorbed individual, I shower my complaints on the
world, who I am sure is quite happy to choke on them each and every
day. Sometimes, after having conversations with people, I realize
the whole thing was just me complaining, while the others listen
with varying degrees of interest (I’d say probably somewhere
between no interest and low interest). Some of you get to hear about
my endeavors at school, while others hear about how I don’t
know how to talk to people or how I can’t find a girlfriend
(as if I’m putting forth a lot of effort, y’know?).
Well, you wanna know what? I’ve had it. I don’t want
to do it anymore. Let’s be realistic, though; nobody can totally
stop complaining, and there will always be legitimate reasons
to complain or legitimate reasons to feel down, but I’m bordering
on depression or masochism here (and for all you sickos out there,
no, I’m not referring to that in its sexual context). So maybe
it’s about time to start looking at things differently, eh?
I’ll start by telling you about this cool
dream I had last night. In the dream, New Wells got a small civic
center of sorts… I guess it was for church meals and events
or something. However, I got word that it doubled as a sports complex.
You could phone the staff, reserve a time and tell them what sport
you wanted to play, and they would convert it to the sport you wanted.
Some guys even played football in it the night before. Football!
In a civic center! So I called and told them to convert it to dodgeball,
and we all played dodgeball in it, and it was awesome! Then, Auburn
University football players showed up, beat up this unknown dream
character who smashed into one of their cars with his Gremlin, and
then they threw his Gremlin on a big rock and smashed it! Then,
Reed Richards from the Fantastic Four showed up, and I said “It’s
too bad you didn’t get here in time to help that guy,”
pointing out the beat up man and his Gremlin, and we—the dodgeball
players, the Auburn guys, and Richards—all had a good laugh.
It was one of the coolest (and most coherent) dreams I’ve
had in a long time. The Auburn thing was a little weird and out
of nowhere, but eh.
School started on Tuesday. I am adjusting to my
late schedule better than I thought I would. So far, I haven’t
fallen behind on my reading, and I’m maybe just slightly ahead
on my non-reading assignments. I also have a couple of classes with
people I know, which is always cool. I’m working a little
less this semester, but I’m not in dire need of money…
that is, until I purchase DVDs, which, according to Vincent Largo,
is an inevitability.
One last thing before I wrap it up: has anyone had
a low-carb burger? Y’know, the kind that doesn’t have
a bun? I am intrigued by these, mostly because I think they are
the dumbest thing ever. The last I heard, a low-carb burger was
called a steak and salad. But now they are united as one bunless
entity and probably cost more than a burger with a bun.
Whatever.
So long and
have fun.
01.10.04
– Wired!
Recent
Movies: The Big Lebowski, The Last Starfighter,
The Blues Brothers, possibly more, but I’m not sure
Music: Nothing in particular as of late
Literature: Lucky Wander Boy by D. B.
Weiss, Understanding Comics by Scott McCloud (finally finished),
X-Men: From the Ashes by Chris Claremont, Batman: The
Dark Knight Returns by Frank Miller
Games: Zoo Keeper (Arcade), Pac-Man Vs. (Gamecube/Game
Boy Advance), Castlevania: Lament of Innocence (PS2), Mario &
Luigi Superstar Saga (Game Boy Advance)
I had trouble
falling asleep on this very night last week, as well. I did finally
get to bed at around 5:00. But at this point in this entry, it is
5:31 AM, and I’m quite certain there is no possible way that
I’m going to get any sleep tonight… or this morning…
or whatever. My apologies for potentially dragging the mood of everyone
who reads this down, but I think I have too many things to worry
about and too many reasons to feel sorry for myself that are sort
of getting in the way of a good night’s sleep. I haven’t
been sleeping well at all for the past week or so. It always takes
me a decent amount of time to fall asleep at night—usually
between 15 and 45 minutes. However, this week it’s taking
between an hour and an hour and a half to get to sleep and I usually
have to get up and drink something or read the newspaper to get
weary. I’ve been going to bed between 2 and 3 and waking up
at noon completely exhausted, exhausted in such a way that I could
probably sleep a lot longer if I wouldn’t force myself to
wake up before progressing too far into the PM hours. I haven’t
had this much trouble falling asleep in a very long time, and I’m
not quite sure what to think of it. I worry about stuff all the
time, so why is it so bad now that I can’t fall asleep?
However, there
are 10 days left in this winter break, and I would like very much
to cherish each and every one of them before entering into a spring
semester that may end up being worse than the horror that was my
fall semester. The classes do not appear to be that difficult based
on what little I know about them, but the schedule is going to be
a doozy. I’ll be at school from 9 to 3:20 on Mondays, Wednesdays,
and Fridays, and from 11 to 5 on those other two days. I’m
used to going home at noon on days I don’t work, so this will
take some getting used to. I probably should get into the habit
of doing as much homework as I can at work and during the dead periods
between classes if I want to enjoy life at all, because I am quite
certain I won’t want to do it at home, since I’ll never
be home before 4. How did I ever do this in high school? Man, college
is perhaps more of a breeze than I thought, but I still can’t
stand it.
I need to lose
some weight. If I suck in my gut a little bit, I can almost see
abs, and I didn’t even know I had any of those. I would like
to meet them.
I played dodgeball
this week without pain, but that doesn’t mean anything. It
hurt bad last week, even though it didn’t hurt at all the
time I played before that. I should probably see a doctor, since
it doesn’t look like resting the hips worked.
I have to have
at least one positive thing to say. I know my business card says
I’m a professional lump of negativity and sadness, but who
wants to listen to that jerk sing a sad sad song throughout an entire
weblog entry? Not me… er, you. Whatever.
I did a little
bit of commentary work with Brett Price for the Thunderblah! special
edition DVD, and I think I did a lot better than I thought I would.
Brett and I basically just had fun with it, and I believe it will
turn out well. I actually had things to say, and it felt good to
talk. Go watch the new trailer; I’m not saying anything else
about it.
I think that’s
just about enough for now. I’ll try again next week.
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